Life inside a Casino...

Well the last 3 months have been hectic.

The results of my biopsy were negative. Whoo! Im not dying.

Im no longer working at the casino. In fact im not working at all. YAY! I hate it. I cant do anything but sit at home all day by myself, just what I always wanted.

Robert and I are officially engaged. He asked me the day after Thanksgiving. The whole planning to get married before X-mas went out the window. He didnt tell his parents I was pregnant until 2 days before.

So we are still house hunting, we dont have much longer though. I am already 4 months along, my due date is June 10. Im praying I will be a little late and then maybe I will deliver on my birthday. We dont find out what it is until the 30 of this month. So if the little bugger cooperates, and actually lets us see, I will definetly let you know what it is.

And we have no set wedding date yet. All we know is it will be very,very small, like grandparents and parents only. And then we will probably have a huge ass wedding party sometime after.

But I have to go to bed, I usually only stay awake about 6 hours a day, and ive been up for almost 11. NIGHT!

SO I havent updated in like 4 months, sorry kids. My life has been crazy busy and super interesting. My lease is up on my apartment this month and I was going to room with a girl I work with ,Michelle, and then I found out that there is a bun in the oven. Yes, I said a bun in the oven. Can you believe it? Me of all people. So im not getting that apartment with Michelle, Bob and I are buying a house together and getting married. We want a house before the end of November and we want to be married before Christmas. Whoo-hoo, I finally get my ring. I got to the doctor on the 23rd to see about my lump in my boob. My Mammagram results were negative but the surgeon still might want to take it out. And I go to the doctor for the kid on Nov. 2nd to see how far along I am and to see when im due. We are still fighting over names, hopefully we can decide soon. I dont want to wait til the last minute. Anywho i gotta go back to work..

So I turned 21 on wednesday, and went to Friendly's that morning. I hadnt eaten in 16 hours so drinking was probably the last thing i shouldve been doing. Anywho, the peeps from work started buying me Bud Lights because they dont start serving booze until 10 and it was only 8. Well 10 rolled around and then came the jager-blasters and some other shot things. To make a long story short, the toilet and I became the best of friends, they called my mom to come and get me, james carried me to the car and when she got me home i passed out on the kitchen floor. Yeah I know, it was great. When I woke up I saw Bob and I tried to get the covers off of me and I was apparently stuck and started freaking out. Then Bob called me a Dumbass and said I wasnt stuck, it was my shirt. LOL. Anyways I ended up sleeping from noon until 11 that night.

So thursday night Tonya, Misti and I went to Friendly's again, this time I made sure that I had eaten twice that day, I didnt want a repeat of the day before. So the regulars bought us 3 rounds of rattlesnakes, a round of vegas-blasters and a round of tahitian fucks. Then we went to the Caravan. Saw people from school- Katrina Bivens, Michael Chandler and Casey Ward. Avoided them as much as possible. Then some guy who comes to the casino like everyday drug me up to the DJ and said " this is Shiann, its her 21st birthday and she is a virgin!" I freaked out, I kept telling him I wasnt a virgin but he thought it was funny, and wrote it down on his notepad of requests. So we were dancing away and all the sudden I hear "ladies and gentlemen we have a very special birthday in the house. Shiann Lomax is 21 today!" Well I started screaming (im drunk at this point-2 sex on the beaches, 4 rattlesnakes and some crown, this isnt including all i had at friendly's) Then he said "and shes a virgin! Can we get someone to help her out?" Well I immediately stopped screaming, my face turned red and i got attacked. It was horrible, everyone thought it was just so freaking hilarious. Then i bumped into my cousing Krystal- literally- and she bought me 2 more rattlesnakes. Then I ordered myself 2 more and some guy I didnt know bought me one and said happy b-day. I ended up having like 5 shots in 5 minutes. I then started to feel like shit.

So we left to go home saw Jared, Tommy and Lowell in the parking lot, told them bye and I will miss them cuz im going to days. Then we get to my apartment and the phone rings, its Jared. Hes freaking out cuz Tommy got pulled over and hes going to jail. So we sent Misti to get him because she is the most sober out of all of us. Then the phone rings again, she cant find him so we call Jared back and he is like half a mile down the road in some carpet center parking lot. So we call Misti back and tell her where he is and she finally finds him and brings him back to my apartment. So while we are waiting for his wife to come get him he tries to kiss me and Tonya- not at the same time- and then Tonya just goes off on him. It was awesome. Misti left and me and Tonya chilled and ate some grub before she left. Finally went to sleep at like 4 and got up today at 1.

I have to rest a little bit because Michelle and Tabitha are taking me out tonight. It wont be as much fun because we have to go to and 18 and up club. Tab just turned 20 and Michelle wont be 21 for a week and a half. Oh well should be an ok time. But I gotta go see Bob because he is going sailing without me tonight. See ya later babies!

Whats up peoples? I know I got another journal and I havent had time lately to update it. So me and Bob broke up, and then got back together like 4 hours later. But we are great now. I got a doggy, a tea cup chihuahua and I named her Ginger. My life currently sucks. But I have good news, I will be 21 a week from today, I've heard Bob got me something totally awesome for my birthday, I finally got my supervisor to switch to me to days which means I will start going in at the times I am now getting off work. Which shall work out nicely. Me and Robert will get to see each other a lot more, we will have almost the same hours. So thats gonna, rock no more going to the bar a 7 am!

So the last few weeks have sucked. I'm working like 60 hours a week, not sleeping, not eating and me and Bob have been at each others throats. We talked about taking a break and decided to try and work on the things that are bothering us before its too late. Saturday morning I came home and my apartment was spotless. All the dishes were done, the laundry was folded, the counters were clean... and there were a dozen yellow roses(i dont like red ones- and he remembered) on the island in the kitchen, and Bob was snuggled up in my giant comforter sound asleep in my bed. It was by far the sweetest and most thoughtful thing anyone has done for me in a long time. He knows how stressed i've been lately and it was nice to come home to that. Monday will be our one-year anniversary, i still cant believe we have been together for a year. It seems like 4 or 5 years and it feels like 4 or 5 months all at the same time. Anyways my lunch is over i'll have more later...

So I got moved in...And I did it all on the first day. I told Mom it would'nt take me all weekend. HA HA! It looks so cute. But the ugly walls and carpet kinda ruin it, but I can't change em, so I guess I will have to get used to them. Bob stayed the first two nights with me, cuz I didn't want to stay alone. I mean in four days I haven't seen one neighbor, so I was a little creeped out. But my first night alone went pretty well. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was. I think I might have a little get together sometime soon- that is as soon as it's half-way decent looking. I'm off this weekend so if ya'll want to stop by feel free. I will prolly be decorating, or sleeping. It's just so weird not to have someone else there all the time. It's just me and I love it. I'm glad I didn't let Bob move in. Hes been there all weekend and we have been at each others throats. He's just been treating me like a two year old just like my grandparents, and I can't take it anymore. But it's just because he is worried about me. As soon as he get's off work he is there and he stays until I leave to go to work.

So today is Valentine's Day...whoo-hoo. My first V-Day where I get a present. YAY! Anyways kiddies I have to go back to work...I was only supposed to be gone 15 and i've been gone for 30...oops

So I bought furniture..a couch and a bed. I got pillows, dishes, blankets, towels, storage stuff, pots and pans, and a shit load of other stuff. I still have a shit load of other stuff yet to buy. But I have all week. I move on FRIDAY!!! I am so freaking excited. I'm like a kid a christmas. I work tonight, im off tues. and weds., I work thurs. and i'm off fri., sat., and sun. But I have to get back to work my 10 hour days this week are killing me.